Tuesday, July 21, 2009

2 is the lonliest number?

So I've been having such a crappy week. I've just been really depressed again and thinks haven't been as fun. I need my best friend more than anything and yet once again she's not there. She always says that shes here for me no matter what yet she doesn't even know how I'm feeling because she hasn't even bothered to show concern. Well today i was on a park field trip and on the bus ride there i sat next to someone who until today i thought was just another person. Well some things happened that resulted in us talking, like really talking. He told me alot about what he was going through and it made me relieze i wasn't the only person who feels the way i do. He made me feel better even though he may not know it. I still felt alone but it made me feel like we were alone together.

Monday, July 20, 2009

this house is not a home

She hates being here. She hates being able to hear them fight. People say there's no place like home. Well for me it's true. Home is a place where happiness comes very seldomly and where nobody ever seem to get along. So although some people define home as a loving and caring place, i see it as a place where i am forced to go after my day is over. It's a place where i cry myself to sleep almost every night. I love going out here and there every day but towards the end i am overcome with the saddest feeling in the world because i know that i'll have to return home eventually. So yes i must agree there is no place like home.